I confess….
it’s been a hard few weeks. Being sick isn’t any fun, but when your hubby, kid and self are sick, it just ain’t pretty.
I confess…
I get anxiety attacks that linger for days. There’s an equation for me to have them: sickness + no sleep + bills + being stuck in the house = anxiety. It’s gotten better with a higher dose of my depression meds, but it still comes. I still have this lingering sense of panic in the back of my mind, but thankfully it doesn’t cause my body to go into a full on episode of crying, heart racing, labored breathing attack. I am, however, afraid that it will happen. That the feelings of panic won’t subside (usually, my attacks last 4 days). It’s hard to be a good wife, mother, daughter, and friend when I feel like my world is going to combust at any moment. But man, when it lifts, do I realize how good life is! There is so much in the world today that can cause an unrelenting anxiety attack – sky rocketing prices for neccesities, an economy still in the crapper, tornadoes, massive earthquakes, horrible things happening to people near and far, etc. No matter how depressing these things may be, there are still lovely things that surround us. Sunshine. The laughter of children. Family. Friends. Faith. Good books. Good music. Smiles. A loving Father in Heaven.
I confess…
I started writing this confessional over a week ago, when the anxiety was still plaguing me. Now I am back to my normal self and so thankful that I am!
I confess…
In an effort to kick myself out of my sad state, I created a daily chore list for myself. And put it on my fridge. It’s helped a lot, though this week got thrown off by Memorial Day. Just knowing what I will be doing 3 days out of the week (and having playdates set up for the Bean on Thursdays and Fridays) is liberating. Really, it is.
What do you have to confess? 🙂
Boot & Looty 
Kat
/ June 3, 2011Hope you are all feeling 100% better, it’s the worse when it circulates the house.
And I too love to see what’s up for the week. Have a great weekend!
Mamarazzi
/ June 3, 2011i love how honest and forthcoming you are about your anxiety and depression. you are not alone. love the list idea, love it!
thanks for linking up!!
Mere
/ June 3, 2011I confess that I really, really want to get married. I want a pretty dress and a big party with karaoke and lots of awesome food. I want a fancy honeymoon where I magically look hot in a bikini. I want a crazy awesome marriage that everyone is jealous of.
Also, I would kill the entire population of a small country for some fish and chips right now.
Smendrick
/ June 3, 2011I confess that I, too, struggle with anxiety. I agree that one of the worst parts is being anxious that I will have an anxiety attack! I can’t watch the news anymore, either–too many sad things.
Rachel
/ June 3, 2011I confess I’m not as brave as you to confess anything!